for He cares for you January 25, 2012

This last week, a friend (who shall remain nameless!) accused me of being “The Ultimate Mom complainer” on Twitter. Because of who it was, I pretty much laughed it off, threw an insult back at him, and moved on. But then, I got to thinking, “Am I?”

My days are filled with my children. Many days we don’t leave the house and I don’t see another adult until Michael comes home at 5:30 in the evening. Those are definitely my hardest days, as I’ve been wired to be a people person. My children are my greatest gift. Truly they are. There are so many days I sit and listen to Claire giggle at her brother, or hear MP tell me I’m his best friend, and I stop to thank God for the gift that is them.

They are also my biggest challenge in life. I am constantly concerned with how I am caring for them, raising them, what I am teaching them, do I spend enough time with them? They make me angry, make me cry, make me worry, and so many other emotions. And, I am so guilty of trying to mother them in my own power, rather than relying on the power of the Great One who gave them to me. I think this is when I tend to “reach out” to the outside world through my social medias, just so someone knows I’m still there, they’re with me, and it ain’t easy.

This past weekend, Michael was out of town on a fundraising trip for CCF. I am the first to admit: I suck at parenting solo. I absolutely hate when Michael has to go away and I dread those times. Thankfully, my mom came up this weekend to help out but, it was an overly trying weekend. Without too much COMPLAINT, both my kids were very sick (found out later that Claire had a severe ear infection) and, we were housebound a lot of the weekend. Couple that with still trying to get the hang of having my nephew in the house, and it was a toughie. But, still, I kept trying to do it on my own. I don’t know about you but, most of the time, I don’t even realize what I am doing when I leave God out of my struggles. Maybe it’s that I don’t think He has time for something as mundane as the fact that we haven’t slept in 3 nights, my husband’s gone, my son is PMSing, and I can’t control these boys any longer. Or maybe it’s that I think I’m just so darn strong, I can figure it out.

But, that’s the thing about God. He is the God of the Universe who has time and power to simultaneously care about and tend to the mundane of my life while dealing with the BIG issues of the world. And, as I was so gently reminded yesterday, He cares to.

1 Peter 5:6-7 says, “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” He cares for me! He cares for you! He wants our anxiety, our cares, our worries, our needs. I sat at Urgent Care with Claire on Monday night with my baby whom I’d never seen that sick. I saw the temp of 104.6 degrees on the thermometer and I cried. Did I mention, Michael wasn’t there because he was at work? It was hard. Are there harder things I could have been going through? Yes, for sure. But in that moment, God knew I was weak. It wasn’t until the next morning when I finally got to sneak a shower that I realized what I’d been doing all weekend. In my weakness, I’d been relying on myself, or other human beings-flawed and weak themselves.

It was then that God reminded me of the simple truth found in 2 Corinthians 12:9: “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” Boast in my weakness? What? This is so contrary to the independence and strength we are expected to have. At all costs, I must cover my flaws and put up a strong front for all to see. But here, Christ pleads with us to recognize our need for Him.

So, whether it’s a sick child or a dying parent, He cares. He cares for us. He wants our anxiety and our weakness and he means to replace it with the power and strength only He can.

A Spiritual Bludgeon January 16, 2012

One of my New Year’s Resolutions is to get back into blogging, if for no one else than myself. Cause, does anybody really read this thing?

Rather than trying to catch up with all I’ve missed, we’re just going to move forward.

If you follow Michael’s blog or our life on FB or Twitter, you know that our time at CCF is coming to an end at the end of this school year. Probably every other day, we get asked if we know what we’re doing afterward yet. The answer: no. We know what we hope we’re doing: working in a church (preferably in Tally but not limited to) and taking seminary classes. Waiting on a few ducks to fall in a row before we know if we’ll be making a big move, or staying put. The more we’ve thought about moving, the more we realize how much we truly love this town and its people. No matter what, even if we’re called away, we could totally see ourselves returning here in the future to minister. There is a magnetic force on this place that continues to draw us in.

A lot of what I want to write in this post is related to this life-altering thing that’s about to happen to us in changing ministries. Michael and I have basically known this was coming since I’d say May of last year. Therefore, we’ve had a lot of time to work through a lot of options. The best word to describe it is truly: a rollercoaster. We’ve had times where we were 99% sure we knew what we were doing, trying to read into all the “signs” and then, just like that, it changed. While I feel like Michael and I have done a pretty good job trusting in God’s providence through this all, I know there have been times I’ve tried to take matters into my own hands. Today, sitting in service, I was confronted with my sin over the last few months. The sin of seeking to please men, and not God, as well as not trusting that He who called me out of darkness, and into His glorious light, has our future in His hands.

I realized today that, as each opportunity has come upon us, I’ve tried to be someone different. It’s not even nessacarily that I’m being something I’m not but, that I have to prove something to someone. I have to prove to this person or that person that we’d be a great family to have in their church, on their ministry team, in their school. If we can just say the right things, be in the right places at the right time, or show this certain part of who we are, then, of course, they’ll want us on board.

Why? How can I be so dumb as to think that we have anything better to offer to any church, person, school, or ministry than Christ in us? His excellency is so great that it can overshadow and wipe away any sin I might have in me! It’s also 1000x greater than any GOOD I have in me. What I should have been hoping for was that, they’d be able to look past ME, and see only HIM in ME.

Today He gave me 1 Thessalonians 2:4: “On the contrary, we speak as ment approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel. We are not trying to please men but God, who tests our hearts.” When I think of my sin, and who I was and still am, I wonder why I was ever entrusted with the gospel, especially in the form of ministry, but I was. But, the second part of the verse just beats me over the head: we are not trying to please men, but God who tests our hearts. These men, these people, these churches, schools, etc. do not hold our future in their hands, although sometimes it may feel that way. Nothing we can do, say, or prove will decide where and if we have a job in 4 months. Only God can do such a thing. And, He has always taken care of us, in spite of us, if we are following Him as we are sure we are now.

This morning we sang a Sovereign Grace song called “Completely Done.” Musical worship has always been such a powerful way for me to connect with God, and I’m thankful for this new song which spoke to me today.

What reason have I to doubt
Why would I dwell in fear
When all I have known is grace
My future in Christ is clear

My sins have been paid in full
There’s no condemnation here
I live in the good of this
My Father has brought me near
I’m leaving my fears behind me now

The old is gone, the new has come
What You complete is completely done
We’re heirs with Christ, the victory won
What You complete is completely done

I don’t know what lies ahead
What if I fail again
You are my confidence
You’ll keep me to the end
I’m leaving my fears behind me now

Seattle, Day 1 September 9, 2011

Getting ready to fly out!

Last weekend, Michael and I had the amazing opportunity to travel to Seattle to celebrate our 6th Anniversary. I know, 6 years is kind of random for a huge trip but, we had planned to take a big trip last year for our 5 year anniversary. My sister became pregnant with my niece and was due just a few days after our anniversary, and I became pregnant with Claire, and there went our trip.

So, we promised we’d make it up this year but wanted to wait till Claire was old enough to not be too much of a handful for my mom, who volunteered to watch the kids for us. What a blessing! Not only is it amazing to take a trip without kids but, what is more wonderful is knowing they are in such great hands. The kids had a blast visiting Grandma’s house and I’m pretty sure Claire both ate and slept better for my mom than she does for me!

Thursday morning we loaded up the kids for the trip to Tampa. Conveniently enough, my newest niece, Pearl, had made her way into the world the Friday before so we had to get to Tampa early enough to catch a glimpse and a snuggle with Pearl before flying out of Tampa International. So, why Seattle? Lots of people have asked us this. Last year we signed up for a Delta SkyMiles credit card and one of the perks was receiving a free companion pass (basically buy one ticket, get one free for the same flight). So, we wanted to go somewhere we had to fly and the flight would be fairly pricey to get our money’s worth! We started looking into Maine but decided since we only had 3 days, we didn’t want to go somewhere we had to rent a car and drive from airport to our destination. Michael especially has always wanted to go to Seattle and one of his favorite preachers, Mark Driscoll, has a church in Seattle. We love the West Coast and Seattle is somewhere neither of us has ever been. Since I am much more traveled than Michael, it is sometimes hard to find places neither of us has been. So, Seattle it was! Then, our anniversary isn’t until November but, we wanted to go before it got TOO cold out there and at a time that’d be most convenient for my mom to have the kids. So, Labor Day weekend it was!

We flew out of Tampa at 6pm on Thursday night and didn’t arrive there until 11:50pm PST (2:50am in Florida!) We got our bags, found our shuttle and headed straight to our hotel. I so wished we hadn’t flown in the dark because our route took us from Tampa to Minneapolis, then Minneapolis to Seattle, flying us right over North Dakota, Wyoming, Idaho, and the entire state of Washington. Would have loved to see those Rocky Mountains from above!

Sunset out the plane window

So, onto the REAL Day 1!
First highlight of Day 1 was sleeping in as late as we wanted! Of course, when you have small children and have just traveled 3 time zones over, that’s not so easy! We wound up getting up about 9am Seattle time, getting ready and heading out. Wow! What a welcome surprise to walk out of our hotel to the coolest Fall morning and bright sunshine! It was such amazing weather!!!! We found a corner cafe, got some coffee and breakfast and enjoyed sitting at a sidewalk table. We knew Seattle would be a big city but, it didn’t really feel dirty or scary like some big cities. And pretty much every street you looked down you could see the beautiful bay looking back at you, which certainly added to its beauty. We decided to walk down to the Seattle City Centre to walk around. This is where the Space Needle is. We walked around and saw the science museum, a rock n roll museum, the space needle, and more. We had about an hour to kill so we decided to go into the music museum. It was about the only part of Seattle that disappointed us but, this is mostly because we’re not as into music as some.

Afterwards, we had a 2pm reservation for the Duck Tour. If you’ve never been on a duck tour, it is not your average tour!

Duck!

The “duck” is a car which rides the streets of the city, but can also become a boat to go into the water. The tour guides on the duck are crazy entertainers. Ours wore some funny hats and wigs, told jokes, and played hilarious music LOUD as we rode through the streets. It was such a fun tour! We got to float into Lake Union, the lake on which the house scenes in Sleepless in Seattle were filmed.

Downtown Seattle from Lake Union

After our tour, we walked down to the Bay, walking through a scuplture park right on the water, and had an early dinner at Ivar’s, a famous seafood restaurant, where we feasted on crab cakes, clam chowder, and fish and chips. While at dinner, we saw tons of people wearing Seattle Seahawks gear. We asked one lady about it and if there was a game going on. She let us know there was a preseason game vs. the Raiders that night in just a few hours. So, we randomly decided to go down and see if we could get some tickets! We bought some $120 tickets from some nice Canadians for $20 a piece! Score!

Before the game we got to go into Safeco Field, home of the Seattle Mariners and see the stadium. I was so sad there was no Mariners game that weekend (big baseball fan here) but was excited to enjoy the football game. This was Michael’s first time in a NFL stadium/at a NFL game so, he was pretty pumped. It was a beautiful stadium and beautiful night for a game. And, the Seahawks won! Great end to a wonderful first day!!!

The Mears at Century Link Stadium

Stay tuned for days 2 and 3!

7 months of pure joy! July 24, 2011

Our Claire turns 7 months today! I can hardly believe it. I feel like the pregnancy just dragged on and now her infancy is flying by. We are so blessed by this little lady. We could have never hoped for a sweeter, more relaxed, happy baby. People are constantly commenting on how good and “chill” she is, which is so true of her. I just adore her beautiful smile and her little giggles. My favorite part about the last 7 months has been watching her brother and her interact. He absolutely adores his sister and makes it his goal each day to make her smile and laugh. I love it!

So, Claire, here is a quick rundown of what you’re up to these days:
-You have 1 1/2 teeth! Your second one broke through just a few days ago.
-You love to smile and laugh, especially at your big brother. You also giggle uncontrollably when Mommy kisses your neck.
-You have rolled over from front to back a handful of times but only from back to front once, and that was while you were swaddled in your crib for naptime!
-You just learned to sit up on your own and you love to sit and play with your toys. You also like your exersaucer (sometimes) and your Baby Einstein playmat.
-You drink your bottles 4-5 times a day and you are eating solids (cereal/fruits/veggies) 2-3 times a day now. You LOVE solid food! You have also had little bites of bread or watermelon when Mommy is eating.
-You take 3 naps a day and you sleep from 7pm-6:30am most every night!
-You just finally got to where you are not swaddled for nighttime or naptime any more! What a big girl!
-EVERYTHING goes in your mouth! You are a drooly little thing.

Can’t wait to see what the coming months will hold for our girl. We love you, Claire Helen Mears!

Biblical Man and Womanhood July 19, 2011

As Michael and I finished up his pastoral training at Four Oaks Community Church here in town, they were in the midst of a sermon series entitled “Four Oaks for the City” explaining the “distinctives” that make them who they are as a church and make them desire to plant a second Four Oaks site coming this Fall. I was sad to know I’d miss out on hearing this sermon as it is a topic which greatly interests me.
So many people (even Christians) are disturbed by the idea of submission or just the simple idea that, while God created men and women as equal in their reflection of God, He created them for very distinct purposes. I appreciated Erik’s usage of scripture which so beautifully lays out God’s purposes and plan for men and women. He could have easily littered this sermon with bad jokes (which he sometimes does in his sermons lol) but he didn’t and I appreciate that!
If this is a topic which even remotely interests you, or you think you know where you stand, or you think the Church is just plain wrong about, you should definitely give it a listen and I’d love to hear your thoughts.

Burdened for the Orphan May 2, 2011

Lately, I have been, once again, feeling the great burden in my heart for orphans. I so desire one day to adopt and I know that is in God’s plan for us. I am just praying right now that God will mark out our path and show us in what capacity that will happen.
I happened upon this blog: www.aplacecalledsimplicity.blogspot.com
which I found from a friend of mine I met in Jacksonville. Holy Moly. I want to be this woman. She and her husband (a pastor) have been married 33 years and have ELEVEN children, EIGHT of whom are adopted! They have sacrificed so much to bring these children into their family, many of which have special needs. You can hear this woman’s heart, her intense burden for the orphan, and her call to fulfill James 1:27 in each word that she writes.
I’ve not yet had the pleasure of getting through all her writings but I was especially excited about and encouraged by this one for those of us who feel like adoption is just so expensive:

http://aplacecalledsimplicity.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-woke-up-with-some-thoughts-on-my-mind.html

I highly recommend you perusing her blog if adoption is something that interests you (and if you call yourself a follower of Christ, it should!) Please also be in prayer for our family as we think and pray about “What’s next?”

Discipleship and Reproduction May 2, 2011

“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:19-20

Not everyone has the opportunity to see the fruits of their labor they way I have. Two years ago I met a sweet girl (T!) at CCF who was finishing up her sophomore year at FSU. We struck up a friendship, she confided in me about some tough things that were going on in her life, and we became close. That Fall I asked her to pray about beginning a formal discipleship relationship with me where we would study the Bible and spiritual disciplines, as well as just “share life” together. She agreed and we did. A surprise to me, as much as I helped her to grow and to get through some hard times in life, she was able to do the same for me. The growth I have seen in her has been incredible. This semester she got to lead a D1 or discipleship small group at CCF and has had the opportunity to pour into the hearts and lives of a group of girls at CCF. She has used much of what she has learned on her own and during our time together to help those girls grow.

A few weeks ago we had a baptism service at CCF and one of the girls in her group (Allie!) got baptized. Allie was very nervous when sharing her testimony before the group. My heart was melted when I saw Allie give a quick glance to T for reassurance. With a sweet smile which seemed to say “You’re doing great,” Allie was able to continue. Then, T got to help perform Allie’s baptism. This was such a sweet moment for me! I wept at the sight of a girl who had come so far in 2 short years, who sees herself as much less than capable a lot of times, having led another to the cross. Although I barely knew Allie it was so cool to see what I had poured into T being poured out to Allie! More importantly, to see the proof that God uses even the weakest and imperfect people, as long as they are willing.

That same baptism service, a girl named Carol was baptized for the first time. Three weeks later, she baptized another girl who had made a commitment to Christ and whom she had had an impact on. What a sweet moment, once again, to see God using the faithful and willing, even if they don’t seem the most “capable.” This is what God requires of us: to be willing. I see this time and time again in our ministry when one pours into another who pours into another and another. This is the Gospel at it’s finest and the reproduction of God’s people. Sometimes, you don’t get to see your willingness reproduced but, rest assured, when you are living aligned with the Great Commission, you are reproducing.

Reflections on an epic Easter April 27, 2011

This weekend was one of my best recent weekends to date. It was full of God, His people, and my family. It was a much needed reprieve in a the last few months of emotional chaos.

The weekend started out celebrating Good Friday with the good people of Four Oaks Community Church. The evening was a prayerful one reflecting on the sacrifice our Savior made for us on that fateful day. I am thankful to Pastor Erik for his reflections that night. While Easter is an amazing day of celebration, Good Friday is probably my favorite day in the Christian faith. It is still so hard for me to fathom the sacrifice that was made. I am always rocked inside when I think about what that must have felt like for Christ. Especially when it is pointed out the actual separation from God that Jesus felt that day, something I will never have to feel. I was even brought to tears when reading the crucifixion story to MP from his Bible that night.
Another cool part of the weekend was all the celebrating we got to do with Michael Paul. As he grows older, it is so much fun to watch him enjoy activities like egg hunting, anticipating his Easter basket, decorating Easter eggs, and learning about the true meaning of Easter. Saturday was spent doing just those things with him and it was a wonderful family day that I am so thankful for.

Sunday morning marked baby Claire’s 4 month birthday. I can’t believe my sweet girl is 4 months already! She was looking adorable in her sweet Easter dress and she even went to the nursery during church for the first time. She did great and I’m thankful for the sweet nursery workers taking great care of her. We really missed our church family at Crossbridge yesterday, though. In case you don’t know (and you should!), Michael is part of a three month long “training” program with the pastors of Four Oaks, one of our financial and prayer supporters. As a part of their support to CCF and the FSU Navigators (another campus ministry), they asked Michael and the Navigators’ director to be a part of this training program to grow them as pastors and let them see another side of ministry. We are grateful for the opportunity for Michael to gain some training and, as a part of it, we are attending Four Oaks for the months of April, May and June. So, if you have been wondering why you’re not seeing us at Crossbridge, that’s why! We’ll see you all in July. Erik preached a fantastic sermon which really challenged me.
The afternoon was spent in Havana at Michael’s uncle’s home eating tons of food and watching the kiddies hunt Easter eggs. Claire slept through almost the whole event but woke at the end to show her sweet face to the family and snap some adorable family pictures.

But, Sunday evening was, by far, the best part. A few weeks ago we celebrated 6 baptisms at CCF and Sunday night, we celebrated THREE MORE! Each of the 3 girls shared their very different but very moving testimonies without holding back. I was so proud of each of them and, as always, it was so moving to see what God had done in their lives, especially since our ministry had a huge part in each of their stories. I had the privilege to tell one of the girls whom I had not met till that night, Cassandra, that, although I didn’t know her before, I had been praying for her salvation. You see, Michael hangs prayer cards in our shower each day of things for us to pray for and for the last few weeks he has had the name of some “lost” students who he has been praying would find salvation. I hadn’t gotten to meet Cassandra but he had told me about her and her name was on the cards. Sunday night I got to tell her that I had prayed for her and that we could now take her name off the card! Praise God!

The night finished out with a celebration of 13 of our 15 graduating seniors. Each senior had a few fellow CCF students share the impact they had had on their life and then each senior got to share their future plans and their “departing words.” What a humbling experience to hear each of them share the lasting impact CCF had had on their lives. The statement of the night was “I wouldn’t be the person I am today (or my relationship with Christ wouldn’t be what it is today) if it hadn’t been for CCF.” It was such an amazing testimony to the work God is doing at FSU. This is, by far, our largest and best senior class to date and they will be sorely missed. We are thankful for the service they have given to the ministry but, above all, the way they have grown and been used in the lives of their classmates. This was a much needed night of encouragement for me and it made every time Michael has to be gone for a CCF event, every time we receive a late night phone call from a student, or every time he has to work late into the night so worth it. God, thank you for using him and, indirectly, me for your purposes.

As I look back on this Easter I am thankful for the cross, the gift my children and husband are, and the ministry God has given us.

What Submission Is Not March 15, 2011

1 Peter 3:1-6
1 Wives, in the same way submit yourselves to your own husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, 2 when they see the purity and reverence of your lives. 3 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. 4 Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. 5 For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to adorn themselves. They submitted themselves to their own husbands, 6 like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her lord. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.

I have FINALLY gotten back to reading Piper’s book, This Momentary Marriage. I thoroughly enjoyed the first few chapters and even blogged some summaries at the end of last year. I have been able to get back to it this week and, of course, it is still so powerful. This book is definitely going to go on my Must Read list for engaged couples. Pastors, you could even use it as a resource or outline for premarital counseling.

This week, I started chapter 8 entitled, The Beautiful Faith of Fearless Submission. Uh oh…the “S” word. A dirty word in some circles, but Piper does an outstanding job of clearing up the misconceptions of submission by using the unlikely example found in 1 Peter in regards to a believing wife and her unbelieving husband. What I liked best about the chapter was Piper’s 6 points on What Submission is NOT:

1. Submission does not mean agreeing with everything your husband says.
2. Submission does not mean leaving your brain or your will at the wedding altar. (my personal favorite)
3. Submission does not mean avoiding every effort to change a husband.
4. Submission does not mean putting the will of the husband before the will of Christ.
5. Submission does not mean that a wife gets her personal, spiritual strength primarily through her husband.
6. Submission does not mean that the wife is to act out of fear.

And the best part is his definition of what submission is: “Submission is the divine calling of a wife to honor and affirm her husband’s leadership and help carry it through according to her gifts…It is an attitude that says, ‘I delight for you to take initiative in our family. I am glad when you take responsibility for things and lead with love. I don’t flourish in the relationship when you are passive and I have to make sure the family works.’”

Women, married or unmarried, if you have any reservations about submission, I highly recommend this chapter.

My God will come through…always. Always. March 14, 2011

Recently we were introduced to a new worship song by Passion’s Kristian Stanfill. The lyrics are as follows:

My foes are many, they rise against me
But I will hold my ground
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

Troubles surround me, chaos abounding
My soul will rest in You
I will not fear the war, I will not fear the storm
My help is on the way, my help is on the way

Oh, my God, He will not delay
My refuge and strength always
I will not fear, His promise is true
My God will come through always, always

I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
I lift my eyes up, my help comes from the Lord
From You Lord, from You Lord

Some of my most faith-testing and faith-building experiences in the last 2 years have been money-related. Who hasn’t had money woes in the last two years? Since January, 2009, I decided to go from 160 hours of work/month to 60 hours a month. We had 3 foster children, we had to put a new roof on our home, we got pregnant and, with new insurance, had to pay out of pocket costs that were astronomical. It has been scary to say the least. All of us have unexpected financial things that come at us every day. The car needs new tires, the pipes sprung a leak, the dog needs to go to the vet. Maybe they are bigger than that like a loss of job, or a catastrophe.

Although we knew this pregnancy and baby would cost us more than Michael Paul did when we had the good hospital insurance, we weren’t prepared for how much we would have to dip into our savings to cover the cost. I am, by nature, a worrier, and because I handle most of the family finances, every time an unexpected bill comes up, I worry. It’s something I am working on and I pray endlessly about. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that God does not want me to work full time again. I know that our situation now (or even me working less, hopefully, one day) is His desire for our family. But it is so hard not to doubt this when the financial situation feels so hopeless during these times. This summer I had a lot of these times. Enough for Michael and I even to discuss me going back to work full time. We just have to keep telling ourselves this is what God has for us now.

Fastforward to this week. I’d been avoiding doing our taxes because I knew, due to me making less money this year and Michael’s tax situation changing, we wouldn’t be getting nearly the return we had last year. But, this week, we did do them and found out we would be getting back upwards of $5000! Wow. I still don’t know how this happened but I can say it is all God. This will put a big dent in the debt we incurred for our roof, the baby, and the money we had to remove from savings. Then, yesterday, we found out we’d be getting another unexpected gift of even more money to help with baby expenses. When Michael told me, I literally started to weep tears of joy and thankfulness. I immediately prayed, thanking God that, even in my doubt, He had once again, come through as the lyrics to the song say. He always does. He is faithful. When we are walking in His way and following the call He has on our life, He will always come through. Always.

Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it. Malachi 3:10