Well, it has been a LOOOONG time since I blogged. Blame on it on a little thing (or person) named Claire Helen, my now 2.5 month old daughter. I can’t believe she is almost 3 months old! Time is flying!
These last 2.5 months have been a wild ride of emotion. I am beyond thankful that Claire is a wonderful, sweet baby and has fit just perfectly into our little family. We are blessed beyond measure by her. She has a calm, cool disposition and is such an EASIER baby than her big brother was. Thank you, Lord!
Over the last few months, I have spent a lot of time at my kitchen table. Sparing the details, Claire had some trouble with nursing so, at two weeks old, I decided to start exclusively pumping my milk to feed to her in a bottle. I have pumped 8x/day for 15 minutes for the last 9 weeks. That is 4 hours every day. Wow. I have a little station set up at the kitchen table so I can still see MP while he is playing. I have my laptop here and, most every day I have windows open for my Gmail account and Facebook. Thus, I have spent a lot of time on the ol’ Book. However, I have struggled in these first few months of learning to be the mom of a preschooler and newborn to spend time with God. I used to know I had 3x/day I could do it-either early in the AM before MP woke, during his naptime, or after he went to bed at 7:30pm. But, with Claire waking in the night and not yet being on a regular nap schedule, this became difficult. Or so I told myself.
Then, I realized: I spend FOUR hours a day pumping and sitting in front of this computer. While it may not be a time 100% away from distraction or noise, or a time to be totally alone, I could easily spend this time in front of my Bible (or biblegateway.com LOVE IT) instead of Facebook stalking and posting.
In the past, some years I have observed a Lenten fast and others not. If you don’t know what Lent is, it is the 40 (ish) days leading up to Easter, or the time between Ash Wednesday and Easter. And, no, it’s not just for Catholics! I find Lent to be an amazing time to stop and reflect on the gift Christ gave for us on Good Friday. Many people choose to give something up during these times such as TV, sweets, sodas, or the internet. However, I think that, just as important as giving something up, is adding something in. Each time you desire that “thing” you gave up, use it as a time to reflect on the sacrifice Christ made for you. Use it as a time spent in prayer or the Word. Don’t just give something up to give something up. Treat it as you would any fast, and use it as a time to cling to the Lord.
In thinking about what or if I should give something up this year, I instantly thought about my time spent on Facebook. It is no secret that many these days are addicted to it. My husband posted a thought-provoking video on his blog HERE. Piper says it best when he said, “Facebook alone is evidence enough that we will not be able to stand before God and say we did not have time for prayer.” If you can’t say, Amen, you oughta say, Ouch! I have always been one of those who checked it first thing in the morning and dozens of times throughout the day, since, as I said, I am home all day and my laptop is always open. Thank GOD I don’t have internet on my phone. The more I thought about doing it, the more I told myself it was no big deal. It would be too hard. This is when I realized, those thoughts were exactly the reason it was what I had to do.
To some of you, this might sound trivial. Who cares? But, to me, this was truly a decision to sacrifice something that was admittedly distracting me from God. To eliminate this completely and look to Him. I pray that all of you who have given up something for Lent, would also add something in: prayer, time in the Word, meditation on the cross and its meaning. Consider your miniscule sacrifice in comparison to His. I pray this Lenten season will give me and all of you a renewed view of Christ.